the jerk

I've been thinking what If I'm gonna stay this way forever? Am I gonna be lonely?...
Friends? Yeah I got some. But in the end, does one really have that many friends? And besides, crowds makes me lonely. I'll just feel as if I'm an island in a sea of people.
Sometimes I wish I was a jerk so I could just just play other girls' feelings. But then I'm not. I hate commitments. I hate being attached. I hate being stucked.
Wait a minute, I am a jerk!