sunny, where art thou?

Finally the sun shown up after a few days of hibernation! Where the hell have you been sunny? Christmas wasn't the fun I expected to be. It was... dull. And I didn't even know the reason why. If it wasn't for my friend Caryl who texted and asked me how my Christmas was, I wouldn't have found out the reason why Christmas wasn't Christmasy. It was because of the sun. The sun wasn't where it supposed to be was... And *****'s not-being-able-to-reply act didn't even have the slightest effect. Really. Really! Well ok, It did... but just a bit. Besides, I'm not so into her anymore.

Follow you? You're kidding, right?

I really hate it when people with no authority act as if they're some kind of a god. Dude, I'm not a leader but I'm no follower and never will be. And besides, next time If you pull a some kind of a leader act make sure you are at least half as good-looking and half as smart. See to it that you came from schools I've been to sucker!

the jerk

I've been thinking what If I'm gonna stay this way forever? Am I gonna be lonely?...
Friends? Yeah I got some. But in the end, does one really have that many friends? And besides, crowds makes me lonely. I'll just feel as if I'm an island in a sea of people.
Sometimes I wish I was a jerk so I could just just play other girls' feelings. But then I'm not. I hate commitments. I hate being attached. I hate being stucked.
Wait a minute, I am a jerk!

PE sucks

If it wasn't for my PE I should have gone home by now and relish the long weekend. The sad part is I have PE. The saddest part is I've got to have PEs for four consecutive semesters!

Porn Again

I think I'm just into porn lately.

Failure

Had I known that all the sacrifices I made of going to that class would just end up like this; I should have dropped that subject earlier this first semester. But then I didn’t want to give up without a fight so I stayed and endured the grueling task of going to that class every single say of the week armed only by my constant crossing of fingers hoping I wouldn’t be called for boardworks just to save myself from humiliation. And surprise, surprise. All my determination and hard work summed up as this; I failed. I failed my college algebra. I have failed myself.
It may be a case of dyscalculia or the teacher was just the perfect personification of an evil witch that didn’t even have a slight pity on people suck in math that an ending as horrible as this resulted. Honestly, I don’t really know the exact reason why I failed and besides, blame-shifting wouldn’t be much of a help right now. But the thing that really frustrates me was the fact that I wasn’t even absent for a single meeting and was just late once. I had the determination its just that I’m no math wizard. God, I should have gone home during math time. It seems that no matter how hard I tried to pass that subject, I’d still fail.
I did everything I could just to save myself from the possibility of taking math twice. I studied really hard. I even attended tutorial classes for that subject but It seemed like “improvement” was an unfamiliar word. And if there was any It would have been just a ripple in a vast waveless ocean. Math was a foreign language I tried to understand and every time it spoke of numbers and graphs I could only utter back in pidgin. I swear I love math but It just had my love unrequited.
Right before I took my grades I prayed for a miracle to happen but, sad to say, the miracle I prayed for did not come. I didn’t wish for a high grade but, heck, a small part of me hoped that I would at least reach the passing mark. So sad I did not. I just did not.

This. Is. Shit.

I still dont have my uniform. And we're like supposed to wear it today. Thank God its a holiday. But still. I still have have a class tomorrow. That means I've got to have a uniform tomorrow. The problem is it is still not done til wednesday (if the dressmakers assurance is right that is)Now, is this shit or what?. Dear God I need help.

This is official. I cried on the third day of class. Long story. Lets just say I'm really pissed of not having friends, and tired, and homesick, and just sick of my sked, and... I could go on and on for hours. I cant wait for saturday. I'm going home!

Stuck

We are starting to go into our separate ways. I guess people do find who they really are when they're in college. Its still three days since class started but the other half are not even showing up. We're gonna have a gathering this friday but I'm not even sure if they're coming. I am. The others have their new friends already but I'm still stuck to them. But what happens if they'll find new friends too? I'm so alone.

I hate my new college life

I just move in into my new home- I mean house just yesterday. It would be my humble abode for the next few months... specifically this semester. Only a semester since Im planning to transfer to a new college. (My issue.) The city is such a lonely place filled with hypocrites and cold people. And I dont know how long would I be able to survive.

Stupid

You can afford to be picky. You don't mind your own company at all, and you know within five seconds of meeting someone if there's anything there. Don't spend your time with anyone you're really not interested in. -my forecast on friendster

Oh puleez. Not that its bad but i'm just not that into horoscopes. Im in Cyberia. Cool place. Comfy chair- but not the place. Im not just that comfortable.

Friends.

I think I dont have friends despite the fact that I have 115 friends on friendster. I dont really care about many of them but the people I thought and even promised thet they are gonna be there for me are not even texting. Now, what am I suppose to feel? Maybe they're busy. But were they busy for the whole year?

College

Im gonna have myself enrolled tomorrow... and Im not excited.

Real Life Sucks Losers Dry.

Shit. Its all coming in inside my system a little at a time. My self-made parallel universe is starting to annihilate all by itselt- thanks to all the deep shit this world could offer. Man this is so unfair. My new-fangled phone is starting to overrate... and cheapen every second!, My regrets of not doing good in school starts to creep in after learning the perks of being a valedictorian, All the things I've expected didn't even happen. Oh man I think all these reality bites suck me minute by minute. Is this karma? If it is, Then why is it I'm the only one not doing good?

survivor

Im graduating tomorrow. And I dont know what to feel. I guess Im numb. The thought of graduation havent really hit my mind that hard yet. And besides, I dont really like my school.(transferee syndrome) In fact, my highschool was like a survivor shooting- for three years. I had to endure being deprive of basic comforts (like watching survivor) and exposed to harsh elements. I should be awarded as sole survivor.

Viva el Pacman!

Pacquiao lost. No need to expound. I felt like the whole world collapsed.

Aargh!

Shit! What have I done?